my boyfriend just left… thank you God for giving me a man who can hold me down for good and love me for who I am.

hola mi corazón. yo te amo muchisimo. tu no sabes que tu haces conmigo. yo piensas de ti mucho. todo lo día. yo no se que yo escribe por que yo no hablo espanol bien. tu eres mi vida! pero adios y chao porque yo no sabes hablar espanol jajajajjaajajaja 

muahxoxoxoxoxo

- who would’ve known that we were going to be class partners Junior year.

- who knew i would’ve been your girlfriend.

- how did we do it?

- how we’d get so far without even breaking up to making up?

- how did kissing in the corner of my locker get us closer?

- why did you hang out with me everyday after school in the basement?

- how come you still love me?

- how come your thinking to yourself now wondering why she asking herself these questions to herself

- how much do you love me?

-why me?

- out of allllll the pretty most looking girls in school or maybe out of school and the girls who try to get your attention could be yours. why pick me? why stay with me?

- dont think im not thinking bad about us because i am totally not i adore this. i just sometimes cant believe how were together and it feels sooo close but so far at the same time

so, lately ive been having bad dreams about Darryl. Especially last night. We were in my building and for some reason Mercedes was there with another guy but i couldn’t acknowledge the guys face. But, Darryl was getting pissed off like he was jealous cus she was with another guy. And I was so confused like why is he getting jealous IM HIS GIRLFRIEND! And then we were at school and Amber was inside the school and that same thing happen all over when she passed by the hallway with Amy Obeng and said “look how happy they are” (or something like that)  and at that moment since i already knew what was gonna happen next i let Darryl walk me to the locker and when he said ill be right back i didn’t walk away this time, i walked right behind him and saw them argue. And i grabbed her and kept slamming her on the basement door. And kept punching her till she bled. And then i left, and i saw Darryl go to the locker room kicking the lockers and screaming. And then another dream happened…We were in front of the school, Darryl, Marc, Kimberly, Kayleen and others but i didn’t catch em. And Marc told me that Darryl wanted to order food but he didn’t want to waste money and he was with Mercedes around the block of the school and he told her if i order you should pay for me and he winked at her and she laughed. And I got so mad I grabbed Darryl and took his phone and saw all these text messages of her and i slammed his phone to the floor. And went to find her. And i did, I  grabbed her by her hair and kept fighting her and i kept having these blackouts. And i woke up and i was like why am i having dreams of these girls! Im not understanding why. I haven’t even thought about them in real life. I’m only writing this because i actually haven’t had time to speak to Darryl about my dreams and stuff i have been thinking because he has been busy but i guess thats good i guess?